I'm an electrical engineer with a graduate degree in computer science. Bell Labs, then
senior leadership running product development at global tech companies, then retirement,
travel, boredom — and a search for the thing I'd always actually liked: problems and
puzzles. So I started trading, and made an assumption I'm still slightly embarrassed by:
options are just maths, and maths is my home turf, so how hard can this be.
Hard, it turns out. I lost a great deal of money. Then I did the sensible-sounding thing
and subscribed to the people with the track records and the testimonials, and every one of
them put me in a deeper hole than I was in before. Then I moved to futures and found the
real problem, and it wasn't the market:
I was so afraid of losing that I took every small profit the moment it
appeared, and let every loser run to the bitter end. I knew it was wrong while I was doing it.
I did it anyway.
You cannot fix that by trying harder, so I automated it — badly at first. I swung for the
fences the way I'd been taught and blew up account after account. Somewhere around fifty
of them. What changed was going back to what I actually know how to do: be structured,
find the root cause, and stop optimizing for profit — because profit was never what was
ending my accounts. Drawdown was.
Read the whole thing — including why I'm selling
this at all, and the answer that isn't the flattering one →